Einstein or Gump?

Einstein or Gump?

I have found it very difficult to hold a consistent line of thought of late.

This was very apparent last week when I spent a week with a large group of people, most of whom knew very little about me. If introducing myself felt clumsy, expaining what I do was next to impossible. It was much easier to sit quietly with a smile (which seemed to keep most of them at bay!).

In the absence of quick answer or witty comeback I was surprised to find my ability to tolerate silence in company much greater than in the past, although those around me found it a little uncomfortable. 

Silence it seems, is an awkward place for most!

It took a while but I began to appreciate how much more of my time of late is spent simply. Simply in the present moment. 

By simply, I mean lacking complexity. In that space the need for understanding or explanation is redundant. The bizarre thing is that in that space lies total understanding. An understanding which is immediately lost in the attempt to explain. 

The silence or stillness in that space enriches the experience within that moment in a way that requires no explanation.

The downside of my new found simplicity is that it is in direct opposition to the story I have spent a life time convincing myself to be true. It would appear that we are nearly always the last to see through our chosen self identity, and though I may have convinced myself that I was Albert Einstein, the world was looking at Forrest Gump!

I am beginning to apprecaite that life really is like a box of chocolates...

With love

Bill