Find your still point
"So, how is 2018 treating you?" someone innocently asked me the other day.
On reflection I said that I felt like I was sitting in the middle of a vortex watching what I had always thought was my life spinning wildly around me. Thankfully, most of the time I sit in the centre maintaining the stillness of the observer.
Occasionally one of those spinning objects catches my attention and I try to grab it, attempting to pull it toward me. Inevitably the centrifugal force pulls me into the melee and I become part of the drama, unable to get any true perspective. Spinning wildly out of control is little use to anybody and I am quickly learning to detach and be still, hopefully providing some sort of reference point for those looking to exit the drama, but that's not my motivation.
The more time I spend in that still point the more I realise that my life is not in fact all the content spinning crazily around me. That still point allows me to discern reality, a sort of selfish act of no self identification. Anything which tries to remain with me in that space has to be in perfect alignment with that peace or it will be torn mercilessly from my grasp and sent out into the vortex. Holding on tight will drag me with it.
Equally gravity will pull toward me anything or anyone in alignment with that space. No need to control. Just trust.
Sometimes it is difficult to remain an observer as aspects of my life, including those I love, are pulled about in the tornado, but they are just being moved toward their own unique still point. On Monday I will be taking my Dad to a care home for dementia (now that is a vortex!) and am feeling all that has to be felt with that and boy is there some feeling to be done. Yet I know that that still point is just one conscious breath away.
As I observe a similar process in many around me it is becoming very obvious that anything which is not in alignment with your highest expression is going to be stripped away. Resisting that process will take a huge amount of wasted energy. Holding your space will draw what is a match toward you. Holding onto what's in your space...good luck with that one!
If you asked to live in interesting times...you got it!
Much love and great peace,
Bill