Absent Minded?
I don't feel I am alone in finding the energy a little strange at the moment.
Everything seems kind of surreal with a paradoxical mix of incredible presence and total absence. If I look back over the week it feels like one of those familiar car journeys. I suddenly find myself at my destination but with very little recall of actually driving there.
The weeks pass and so much seems exactly the same, yet at a subtle deeper level everything is totally different. Years of repetition allow me to navigate the requirements of each day but the thoughts and feelings which cemented the experience as reality in the past seem to have little traction.
In my world this is having the strange effect of slowing time and like a card trick the illusion loses its impact when broken down into frame by frame segments. This is not so good for the mind and indeed people have been telling me how absent minded they have become.
Forgetting names, losing keys and items on a shopping list may indeed be a sign of my age, but it feels something more than that. One of the minds primary tasks is to organise our experience on a linear time line. This reinforces the belief in cause and effect, but in the minds absence events become disordered, quite literally. This is giving rise to incredible synchronicity, deja-vu and apparent pre-cognition.
A bizarre example of this last week was the strange experience of finding something before I had actually lost it. No wonder my mind has decided to absent itself for large parts of the day.
The presence which accompanies this mindlessness is expressing itself in a very real connection to the physical. Nature isn't just calling at the moment, its screaming at me. Doing qigong in just my shorts in the frost seems the right thing to do. My mind has given up seeking an explanation, and the cold and the land seem to nourish me.
Beyond the physical, the slowing of time exposes peoples' true essence, the truth beyond the assumed identity. It's as if the true beauty lies beneath the make-up, and its being exposed.
Curiouser and curiouser!
With love
Bill