What Subconscious?

It was so comfortable when it is was buried deep in the subconscious.

Why do I keep making that mistake? Why won't I allow myself to be loved? Why I am I unavailable? Why do I lie to them? Why do I Iie to myself?

The reason is hidden in some impenetrably locked painful memory from a childhood experience or an ancestral pattern buried deep in the subconscious, a space I described in my last blog as the "too difficult to look at file".

The lock has been picked. The voluntary amnesia has been lifted. The truth is out. The subconscious is becoming a fiction, a convenient meeting room for the psychologists, the deniers, the self-delusional.

At a workshop entitled Everyday Avatar last month, Suzy Miller explained that the underworld had been closed. My imagination saw an image of a load of bad dudes locked on the lower decks like Leanardo Di Caprio in Titanic. Thestory of how Suzy came to that awareness was slightly less entertaining but infinitely more valuable.

Regardless of the content of the story, we are all experiencing our own version of the closing of the underworld. We can no longer defend our actions, choices or acts of fear with the convenient Freudian, Jungian, psychological bullshit that we are acting without awareness. We have exhausted our excuses for limitation, (if that is not a contradiction). We can no longer excuse ourselves our unconscious acts and describe them as subconscious.

Suzy went on to offer the invitation to "Love beyond where we have loved before". So rather than dismiss our least self-approved choices as acts from the subconscious and so imply they are somebody else's or something else's or some other dimension's fault, why not to try to love ourselves beyond where we have loved before. Love ourselves fully, not just the bits we judge to be "good",

Much Love

Bill