It's Just a Thought

It's just a thought

Something happened this weekend. I won't go into details and not even sure if I could but it demonstrates perfectly, to me anyway, the fragility of a thought based reality.

On Friday morning I was walking through the woods at six in the morning overwhelmed by the beauty of the place, content in my solitude yet connected to those with whom I would love to share this moment I was moved to tears of joy as I sat certain of the wholeness of everything. I felt as if all was perfectly aligned and my patient years of anticipation had finally been realised.

This morning (Sunday) I was walking through the same woods at six in the morning aware only of the absence of Friday's ease. My contented solitude now felt like an enforced isolation, and a disconnection from those with whom it was OK to share this moment. I was not self indulgent enough to shed a tear of sadness but that was the emotion as Friday's certainty of wholeness was replaced by the inevitability of separation.

So what caused such a shift? Just a thought. That's all. Nothing in my material reality had changed in the slightest. The something that happened was just a thought. Like a virus in my computer. I interpreted something as "you are not loved" and that was enough to catapult me into the land of separation, to boldly think what nearly everybody thinks everyday.

My walk this morning was the perfect setting for thoughts to think about previous thoughts in an attempt to solve the problems those thoughts thought might happen. Ridiculous isn't it. Comical really but we all experience those moments. As the day passed and the reality of the here and now reasserted itself those thoughts are as irrelevant as they are invisible.

All is well

Lots of love

Go easy, tread lightly, free,

Love

Bill